Enlightenment is one of my oldest goals, but it's a goal that slightly makes me uneasy at times - so I keep postponing it for later. It would make it a lot easier to achieve other goals, but at the same time, I'm afraid it would also conflict with some of them (like finishing school with good grades, putting up a successful game programming company and having a lovely family). Things in the materialistic world that I'm having difficulties giving up. I can give up my money and belongings, but I can't give up on my goals or responsibilities .. yet. I'm not sure if it's needed, but I think that when I can give up on everything, then I could be free of all worries.
I didn't have any great goals for pk practice before. I occasionally practiced it because I really love creating things and altering what already exists (which is also the reason behind the game programming company goal). Only recently did I come up with a nice goal for practicing pk - I would like to start teaching it one day.
For achieving the enlightenment goal as well as learning more about pk, I have been thinking of going into a Kundalini school in the future.
Hmm, writing this here left my goals staggering. Although most of them were more than 10 years old, I'm no longer certain about most of my goals.
The unreal hath no being; there is no non-being of the Real; ~Krishna
A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.
@ owltwelve : Gladly, as a matter of fact, so far there were hardly any 3d modelers and animators around. Most of my friends are programmers.
@ Treasure Hunter : Thumbs up! Sometimes it might be better to take the time and solve the problem with the thought (if that's not what you already meant by silencing it). Simply silencing it might postpone the problem for later.
Spontaneous pk while in stress can be pretty bad. I now think that's what caused mysterious failures at the robotic contest (robot electronics blowing up with batteries detached, servos constantly breaking and so on). =D No wonder, as it was weeks of stress + many nights without any sleep + months with minimal food. Adding school and olympiads into the equation, it resulted in my biggest crashdown and realization moment. Even though I'm really thankful for this leap, it sure was unhealthy.
Although I'm a lot more calm and positive than before, there are still remnants of earlier thought patterns that sometimes cause tension with no actual reason. As I do the same things I did years ago, I can see how I saw myself back then.
I feel like a yogi blinded by his own downfall. Need to meditate a lot more..
The unreal hath no being; there is no non-being of the Real; ~Krishna
A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.
While comparing my calmness to how I remember it from some earlier moments in my life, I found that I was not always as calm as I used to be. I found the same for my thoughts and behavior. That's why I started thinking whether I was falling.
However, I'm starting to think (again - I realize it multiple times each year) that there probably is no downfall - it's just an illusion because of arriving at the same place again. Although we arrive at the same place, we are different each time (with all the accumulated knowledge and understanding about the universe and ourselves). Progress is not linear, it's more like a spiral.
Another thing that I'm starting to think again is that I can't say I'm calmer or less calmer than before. The definition of being calm also keeps adjusting, so what I remember about being calm is like in different units compared to the current calmness. By default, we don't feel what we are already used to and everything we do feel is being compared to the previous.
I love these daredevil attempts jumping into challenging situations. Today I held an astronomy presentation to professional astronomers while knowing nothing about astronomy (except for the presentation I had prepared). It was somewhat unnerving to frequently be stopped by them correcting my terminology. Another great moment was playing as a substitute in a musical film last year while I couldn't even dance (that was quite embarrassing).
The unreal hath no being; there is no non-being of the Real; ~Krishna
A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.
Thanks for the video, there was quite a lot of information in there.
It answered to quite a few questions I had had. I had tried to get answers through meditation, but couldn't understand the answers back then..
The unreal hath no being; there is no non-being of the Real; ~Krishna
A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.
Omega(the end) + X(the unknown) = Ending Ignorance of the unknown. Truth...knowledge...enlightenment
There is no failure only feedback. Failure is when you stop trying.
The unreal hath no being; there is no non-being of the Real; ~Krishna
A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.
While watching a lot of animes lately, I have come across a few realization moments. There are really good principles / ways of thinking hidden in them.
Dragon ball episode 148 ( Goku defeats his evil enemy and then revives him again). There's also a short description of it at the end of this blog entry .
After having seen all previous Naruto and Naruto Shippuuden episodes, watching Shippuuden episode 167 resulted in a realization moment (Naruto thinks that he has lost everything when actually, he has come to a breakthrough). Posted a description of it on the blog a while ago.
I think that most of these animes are inspired by old scriptures, fairy tales and stories about superheros. Reading them directly might also provide these realization moments.
The unreal hath no being; there is no non-being of the Real; ~Krishna
A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.